These days I seem to be scribbling more than I should.
I am scribbling more than I tap dance on my keyboard.
My note-book is filling faster than I get time,
time to transfer them to my blogiary!
Not having a portable computer
is having its affect on me.
It’s depressing me!
I guess it’s time I went out
and bought myself a laptop!
The only thing that stops me is that
I’m not an impulsive buyer or spender
I have more than enough saved,
but it does not mean I can spend it on whim.
Also, I need to get it into my head
the reason why I am laptop-less!
It’s only carelessness that it broke;
that I broke one that was gifted to me by a spendthrift!
I had listened to Katie Melua too much, that day,
on a loop, and on loud.
My mind was drugged, dozed, and in a trance.
And somehow I forgot I left it on the wee chair!
I forgot, and the very next minute I tilted the chair
sweeping the floor.
Totally forgot Katie was singing sitting on that one
Anyways, back to buying.
I can justify spending on something expensive
for my birthday – that one special day!.
Sadly, some [many] more weeks left for that!
In the meantime I’m hoping I will be gifted one
That makes me think back on gifts I bought myself,
as birthday presents to pamper myself!
Last year, I spent on a trip to Dhaka (it was work + vacation)
Year before, I bought my Nokia Music Xpress mobile
and a Sony W190 digital camera (the previous one broke!!!)
Year before that, I spent on a trip to Colombo (vacation + family obligation)
and also on a scooter.
Year before, I bought an HP Pavillion Desktop PC
Year before, a Sony W55 digital camera
(the previous one broke, not me, my son did it!!!)
Year before, was spending on day care too much to pamper myself.
Year before, I bought my first digital camera.
Other than that, I don’t spend much on myself.
So these are justified right?!!!
And this year I was planning on spending my savings
on a trip to Pakistan,
but a laptop is needed more than that visit.
There is a nagging that says,
go and buy a birthday present in advance!
What should I do?